dreamcastR’s blog

This blog involves me, the only person in the world. Blogging about things that only I experience, being the only human alive.

Entry 7

Well, I got home from work about 45 minutes ago from this post, and on YouTube I got recommended a video called "Why 2007 Was The Best Year Ever." It's really well made, I'd recommend checking it out sometime.

I'm very tired. I only got about 3 hours of sleep, but I really don't want to fall asleep for the rest of the day. Is that straining my body? I'm not sure. Probably. Meh.

I have been losing contact with a lot of my school friends. I seem to get more distant from them the more time goes on, and it sucks. Is this just apart of becoming an adult and moving on from childhood things? It makes me want to cry. I still cry a lot about things in the past, and I don't know why I can't control the tears when the thoughts come to mind. Does everyone face emotional stress like this, to the point where you cry when you just think about good things in the past? I'm getting teary-eyed just typing this and thinking about it, so I guess I'll just stop there. I wish I could look forward to the future more than I do to the past.

Sometimes it's hard to put on a smile. All my life I've just tried to make people happy and I succeeded, but all in the while I was not helping myself or getting help for myself, so I just always let myself suffer. This is especially evident when people would ask if I was okay, and honestly, I'd always say yes. Even my parents had suspicions before my actions I had taken upon myself, and I always denied. I wonder if I should ever consider a psychiatrist at times.

I recently discovered a song I loved in my childhood and it hits the feels. It's really soft and a turn from the music I'm actually known for listening to by peers but, check it out if you want to. 

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That'll be all for today ^-^